Wednesday, December 31, 2008

"So This Is the New Year....and I Don't Feel Any Different..."

This post will be short since I need to's about 12:17 AM here in Hong Kong...yes that's right, I am in Hong Kong, baby!

So it's New Year's and once again, I have not really, truly celebrated it. So my "resolution" is to do something fun for New Year's I want to be dressed up, hanging with friends, singing Auld Lang Syne [spelling???], watching a huge fireworks display, and kissing my sweetie when the clock strikes 12.

But who knows what this coming year holds; before I figure out how to celebrate the next year, I gotta think about this upcoming one. I have a lot of big decision[s] to make and think about [job offers, where to live, what will happen in the future.......]. I hope good things though.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

What I've Learned Thus Far

Even though I am no longer a student, that doesn't mean I still can't learn! We learn new things everyday, whether it's reading the news, watching something new on tv, or meeting someone for the first time.

As I was laying here, looking up the general story of our economic recession [I know vaguely the details, but I want to be better informed!!] on good ole Wikipedia, it made me think of how I want to be more informed and educated on general going-ons...and since my mind works like a row of falling dominos [or maybe a Rube Goldberg machine], from one thought to another, that got me thinking of what I've learned so far from these past few months.

-There IS life after college...good or bad!
I'm not gonna lie, it's been tough. I lived on campus for 4 years, so I knew that living on my own [which I am still technically not, since I'm with fam] would be a total more hallways where people keep their doors open/knock on your door for help or to chat, no more dining halls to feed me, no more being surrounded by thousands [or more] of your peers on a daily basis, no more being able to walk up a flight of stairs to go hang out with your friends, no more late-night cram sessions in the ORL office, no more chatting it up with the awesome housekeeping or dining staff, and no more student identity.

I think that's been one of the more ...stranger things to think about....I've been a student for about 16 years...that's a good chunk of time. And now, having that stripped from me....I feel almost identity-less. Some people call that freedom, but I call that confusion. What am I?

- Applying for jobs is hard. But you gotta do it anyways
I think it's a slap in the face in terms of a reality check...this is being an adult! If you're not a student, you gotta be a working adult in the real world. As scary as that is, time doesn't stop. You gotta do what you gotta do.

It might be dejecting to turn in application after application [I've heard stories of people turning in hundreds of applications!] and not hear anything back...but I guess you learn to have hope and faith. Hope in that someone is gonna see your resume and think 'THIS is what we've been looking for' and faith that you'll find something.

- Driving isn't toooooo's still bad, but practices makes it kind of easier
I am not a big fan of driving. I love being a passenger, but putting me behind the wheel with zooming cars surrounding me, I tense up. I didn't have a car in college because I didn't need one...and driving in a place like LA is almost ridiculous. There aren't a lot of protected left turns, parking costs a lot, you need to apply and have a justifiable reason to have a permit at school, and there are just TOO MANY CARS.

I think I'm a pretty safe driver, but I'm just a small-town girl in a big city driving only slightly above the speed limit is not good enough here. People are in such a rush! If we all carpooled and slowed down to enjoy things, maybe driving wouldn't have to be such a chore. I like driving when no one else is's almost calming...but that only happens if you are on the road at off times, like 3 AM.

I'm still getting used to it though. But hopefully it'll be like anything else I do in life, that it'll be something I'm more comfortable with.

-How to use a dishwasher...and a stove
Don't laugh...but at home our dishwasher is broken, and I didn't have one in college. I mean it didn't take more than 5 minutes to learn, but still.

Also, I don't really cook, but I'm getting more comfortable with the oven and stove. There's still plenty more I need to learn, but I'm getting there.

- The gym isn't scary
This might seem unbelievable...but I had never worked out in a gym until about a month ago. Well I used the treadmill once at the dorm gym, but I don't really count that because it wasn't a real gym.

So yes, I buckled in [and also got reeled in too!] and did a 1 month trial with 24 Hr Fitness. And I'm glad I did. I went in for a free consultation with a personal trainer the day after I signed up, and I found out my body fat to muscle ratio was a very unhealthy percentage [which caught me off guard since I am pretty small...I knew I was flabby, but not that flabby!]. I've been to the gym almost every day since I've had the membership, minus the T-day holiday weekend and a few days where I wasn't in the OC. I'm not a muscle trainer and although I don't look any different, I feel better.

I guess I had never worked out at a gym before because I didn't want people to see me all sweaty and gross [and it seems like 95% of the women that work out come to the gym looking cute in their workout outfits; I just wear a baggy tee and running shorts!], and plus all those machines looked intimidating. But when I went to the gym, I realized that no one cares if you're sweaty...they're all too busy focusing on their workouts. And the machines have instructions on them, so that helps to figure out how to work them [and also watching other people using them!]

Although my membership ends today, I think I'm going to take what I learned and keep exercising every day. And one day, when I have a job and can afford a membership [or afford to budget that in], then I might go back to the gym.

Hopefully this doesn't make me sound like an incompetent fool...but I've had a different experience which has led me to learn or be more comfortable with these things now.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Online (Shopping) Tips of the Day

I actually do a lot of shopping online, so I though I'd share some [logical] tips with you all:

1). Use promo codes! Whether it's from the actual store site itself [on the site or via an email subscription/newsletter], or from a separate coupon site [I really like], you should definitely use them. Although there aren't always codes that you can use, for the most part, there's a good chance that you can find one.
**REAL LIFE EXAMPLE: I found one for 25% on all items at
Urban Outfitters that I've used a few times; I purchased a [different] coat on sale, and with the code, it took off an additional $50, which is awesome!

2). Try to get things with free shipping. Of course, if you can get a promo code whose discount is greater than the shipping cost, then of course use the %-off code instead. However, if you can, I recommend looking for free shipping. Many sites offer that if you spend a certain limit; of course some sites set that limit pretty high, so don't go buying things you don't want/need just to reach that limit...but if can bundle your purchases so that you can get free shipping, then why not? I say this because if you do need to make returns, stores do not reimburse for shipping and handling.

3). Comparison shop. If there's something that you want that isn't specific to a store [i.e. not clothing], don't feel the need to buy it from the first site you see it at. I always type what I'm looking for in the Google search bar to see what it can find. You might have to dig through A LOT of sites, so it can take awhile. But you also need to be careful....if a deal sounds too good to be true, and it's coming from a site that is not very well-known, I'd be very cautious purchasing from there. Related to this, Be cautious! Make sure the website is secure [so that your information is protected], that they have a physical address, and that there is a Customer Service number and other contact information. Check forums/user reviews to see what people have to say about that site. Remember, though, to take them with a grain of salt as well because sometimes sites do pay people/use their employees to write fake reviews to boost their ratings. Also, trust your gut. If the website seems shady, it probably is.
**REAL LIFE EXAMPLE: I just bought a graduation present for my bf, and I had been searching and debating for a long time [this probably took a span of 3-4 weeks to find and decide!]. I originally was going to purchase this gift from, because it came with a free bonus item [and it was a good one!]. However, the tax and the shipping & handling was almost an additional $30 to the price! Instead, I bought a slightly different version from Amazon (they were having a special too!) which also came with free bonus item. And along with my trial of Amazon Prime Shipping, I saved a lot more. I did see some too-good-to-be-true deals, and those sites had received great reviews. But on a forum on CNET, quite a few people were saying that those sites were shady. If those reviews are written on a separate forum and not the site itself, they might be a little more trustworthy.

4). Don't be afraid to take your time or wait a little. With my above example, I'm glad I waited, and I'm glad I took the time to think about my purchase because I got a better deal. Eventually items have to go on sale, so check frequently. However, don't wait too long, because if you do, it might be gone/sold out. There are some items, though, that never go on sale/need to be purchased in advance, like plane tickets...they typically need to be bought in advance to get a good price on them.

5). Make sure the site has a good return policy. I think most online sites that have physical stores [like
Urban Outfitters, or Gap, etc.] let you return items whenever, as long as you have the original packing slip and the item has not been worn/used. If I can, I prefer returning items to the actual stores themselves, but that's just my personal preference. offers free return shipping, and Bluefly does too, if you opt to have your return go towards store credit. But you have 90 days to make that return. Aldo lets you return shoes within a year of purchasing them.

6). Even after you've made the purchase, continue to check back on those items. What does this mean, you may ask? It means that sometimes after you've purchased items, they go on sale...if this happens, a price adjustment may be applicable. If they do offer price adjustments, it usually has to happen very close to the date of purchase; Bluefly's "grace period" is only 5 days...meaning the item's price has to change within 5 days of your purchase.
**REAL LIFE EXAMPLE: This happens to me a lot...I guess that's why I tend to go back to the sites to check out the items I've purchased. It might seem weird, but this habit has paid off many a times. The coat I blogged about last week was reduced by about $20+ within a few days of my purchase, and I contacted their Customer Service immediately; they were able to offer me the price adjustment...sadly [or maybe not so sadly] I will be returning that coat because it doesn't fit right and doesn't seem worth altering. I also saw that a dress I had recently purchased at Urban Outfitters was reduced by almost $30 from the original price [$20, with the promo code I used], so I've contacted their Customer Service...hopefully they can perform the adjustment.

I guess that's pretty much it for now...I guess my last pieces of advice are to check out clearance sections frequently [...I find that the selection is much, much greater than in stores]; buy what you really, really like/can't "live without" [you don't want buyer's remorse] but also know that if the item is gone, you'll still be ok; and don't buy everything you see! Sometimes it's just fun to "window" shop [haha, it's a pun...get it? A window, as in like a browser....???]...but if there's a really good deal, there's no harm in just placing it in your e-shopping cart and leaving it there. And if you do happen to end up making a purchase, you can congratulate yourself on the fact that you got a good deal!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Mellow Music Makes Me.....Mellow

Sorry there, folks...I couldn't think of another adjective to insert that would mean calm [sorry I am too lazy to look it up in a thesaurus] if any of you out there can think of one, feel free to let me know.

Anywho, I thought I would share with you some chill songs that make me feel of them I just heard yesterday on
...which you all can check out [support college radio!].

Ra Ra Riot is "an American indie rock band from Syracuse, NY" [courtesy of Wikipedia] that formed in 2006. I heard their song "Can You Tell" on someone's show. I liked it, but I didn't know who it was. So now I [and you] know! You can listen to that song here.

The above song reminded me a lot of Vampire Weekend...I don't know too much about Vampire Weekend, but they are also another indie rock band that came out of NY in 2006 [courtesy of Wikipedia]. Interesting. I'm detecting a pattern here! Anywho, I enjoy their song "Oxford Comma," which you can listen here.

I first heard Yael Naim's song while browsing through Mac ads on Youtube. Her song "New Soul" was featured on the Macbook Air commercial. When I heard this song, I instantly pictured a movie scene where this song could be played:

The scene starts with bird's-eye view of a sunny morning in New York, where the camera pans over the city. We see a shot of the city's skyscrapers, and the camera focuses on one high-rise. The dawning sun strikes the windows and the beginnings of an illuminating blue sky are reflected in the glass. Then, the camera moves to follow a young, twenty-something girl riding her bicycle on her way to work [most likely a little hip bookstore], where an unsuspecting new day begins that will change her life forever.

Haha, possibly a little cliche, and yes, that all came from me listening to that song. You can listen to "New Soul" here.

Thursday, November 27, 2008


Happy Turkey Day! So I'm back home, in the middle of old room is, well, a mess, and so I've been trying to clean out some things in my room [it's part storage/part hot mess]. I came across a time capsule I made in 5th grade at a friend's birthday party, and I've decided to share with you the letter I wrote to my future [12th grade] self, complete with little kid handwriting (with circles over the i's instead of a dot):

Today is July 15, 19##. Today was Summer's B-day party. My name is Betty XXXX Yee. I'm 11 years old. I was born in RXXXXXXXXX (I still live here right now) on December ##, 19##. My favorite color is green, my favorite animal is a panda, but basically I like all animals. Today is a Tuesday. I graduated 5th grade and I'm going to go in 6th grade. This year school will start on a Tuesday. I love drawing, reading, getting A's on school papers. RXXXXXXXXX is a desert. I have a pet fish. I want a cat or dog but they need a lot of take caring.

[hand drawn picture of 2 mountains, a cloud, and a sun]

I alos like Calvin & Hobbes (Comic Book), Sailor Moon, Mr. Mysterious & Company (book), Travel Far, Pay No Fare (another book), and other stuff. My sisters are EXXXX XXXX Yee (15) and SXXXX XXX Yee (18). SXXXX just graduated this year. EXXXX's going to be a sophomore. My Parents are WXXXX Yee and JXX Yee. I am Chinese. I have black hair and dark brown eyes. My favorte favorite ice cream is Cookies n' Cream. - Write more Later - My 5th grade teacher at VXXXXX was Mrs. Knight. She is retired now. We were her last class. I like getting mail. All the stuff I put in my time capsule is from 4th & 5th grade and from 19## & 19##. Today Mrs. BXXXX gave us the idea for the time capsule at Summer's b-day. Susan CXXXXXX is moving this Thursday or Friday. The maps broshures are from Mrs. BXXXX's. So is the the time capsule box. Also the name thingy card. Today Matt MXXXXX and SXXXX picked me up. They were funny and pretending to be hicks and calling each other Ma and Pa w/ southern accents and were pretending to be my "Ma & Pa" and calling me Betty XXXX. It was funny.

Quotes From Me
"Let There Be Peace."
"Let the World Be a Better Place For All People to Live In."
"Let happiness and <3 be in everyone, not hate and anger." : )
"don't worry, be HAPPY."
"It doesn't matter what you look like, but what's inside."

Sailor Moon/TV show
Mighty Max/TV show
Calvin & Hobbes/comic book
Travel Far, Pay No Fare/Book
Mr. Mysterious & Company/Book
Pandas, Brownies, Mail
Good, Trusting Friends
Car trips to places out of town
Archie comic books
nice sisters
my birthday
Cookie's n' cream ice cream

having bad vision
crooked teeth
obnoxious people
Mrs. Nuckles
diet sodas
not getting mail
gross boys having crushes on you
getting a B or C
dumber people getting a better grade than you
not getting mail or phone calls
fighing and yelling
when SXXXX gets nasty
dumb books
when Mom and Dad yell
people who are racists
trash everywhere
messy houses - like are, but I still love this house
seeing people smoke

Haha, that was pretty funny. Man.....that feels like forever and a day ago.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Please Come Back, Mr. Fed-Ex Man!

I am going to preface this post with the statement that I overthink too much.

Today I was really frustrated, over a fairly small reason, but I'll explain my rationale.

I ordered a winter coat [on sale] from an online store because 1) I don't own a winter jacket or even a regular jacket for that matter and 2) I'm planning a trip up north for my birthday next week, and my experience there has been that it gets a tit bit nippley, if you catch my draft.

Because I wanted it fairly fast, I requested express shipping. Why, you may ask? Unlike most people, things like pants and jackets do not fit my too petite body, and I need things altered. If I needed to get this said coat altered, I wanted to do it sooner rather than later [besides, express altering also costs more money]. It was supposed to come in today, and so around 1:50 PM, I went to the school mail room. Unfortunately it was closed, but that was ok, I didn't mind waiting...til I saw a Fed-Ex driver. He was holding a package, that I thought might have been mine. But me, being the kind of person that doesn't want to harrass a person if I'm not certain the box was mine/wasn't sure he'd give me the box since I didn't have ID, hesitated to approach him. I saw him walk away, and I started to go after him. I was going to call after him, but he had already gotten to the van and drove away.

I walk back inside (and this entire Fed-Ex Man scene couldn't have been more than 3 minutes) the mailroom receptionist is back. I ask, hoping that that Fed-Ex Man's box wasn't mine....but it was. I go back to the house, and I call Fed-Ex's main national line to see if the driver can come back today, but the Customer Service Rep says he can't because drivers have set schedules. So I call the website to see if I can get a refund on my shipping because I was supposed to get it today, and I technically didn't...I couldn't get a refund. The only thing I can do is wait for the package tomorrow. Which wouldn't be a big deal, except tomorrow is the day before Thanksgiving, and I'm pretty sure we're going to leave early and be gone the rest of the week.

I could have tried to pick up the package myself, but then that defeats the purpose of getting it delivered to me; also I would need to borrow the car, and I don't like taking things without asking. Plus I didn't know when the driver would be back to the main drop-off station, and I didn't want to drive during traffic times.

So if I don't get this jacket til Monday, I'll still have to do express tailoring (which I didn't want to do, because to alter a coat costs more than shipping), PLUS paying the express shipping price.

So, why am I frustrated? Because.....
- I was thisclose to getting my package, and I didn't
- I paid that extra shipping for nothing, really and I couldn't get my money back because they technically (tried to) delievered it.
- If this jacket is too big [which is a 98% chance of it being], I'll need to pay for that too.
- And I need to find not-too expensive plane tickets for next week....fat chance of that.

Ok...that was all. Thanks for reading.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Baby, Buy Buy Buy! Or, Get Your Fash On.

So even though I don't have a job, I still like to browse around/ "window shop" every now and then. Of course I do this only after extensive hours of job hunting.

I don't think I'm particularily stylish, but hopefully I look somewhat pulled together in my day-to-day life. Or at least one day I hope to, haha. I'm not advocating for over-consumption or wasteful spending, so please don't think I am. However, I have compiled a list of a few items that I would love to add to my wardrobe (but can't at the moment due to a lack of funds : P ), so here goes:

I've never owned a pair of boots, and I never thought of owning any til I saw a former RA that I worked with wear some; they were really cute! I first thought I'd like some slouchy brown leather ones, but straight riding boots wouldn't be too bad either. I'd want a pair in a dark brown/cognac color; I think they would look great with either a shirt dress or dark jeans and a light solid color top. The Cynthia Vincent riding boots pictured here unfortunately cost around $400...yikes!

I really like the color yellow...especially "deeper" yellows like mustard and saffron. These would look great with dark blue, black, or gray pants.

These are from Urban Outfitters; according to the reviews, they are very cute but painful [which I think most flats are...I've only owned 2 pairs of flats that were comfortable the first time wearing them, and they were both the same style, just different colors!]. I like the way UO shoes look, but I usually can't wear them because I'm a size 5, and they only stock size 6+. But this seems to be the case for most shoe stores that I go to. : /

I like that these are crazy embellishments or buckles.

I've been semi-looking for a pair because I feel that they look dressy without the fuss of heels. And these are nice because they don't look too pointy where it's too severe. These Christin Michaels flats can be found on Zappos and they cost around $130 per pair...oyyy!

Before, the idea that a dress would have sleeves bothered me. But I think the slightly deep v-neck, the 3/4 slighty puffy sleeves, and simple thin knit make it cute. I think it'd look great with a pair of boots (maybe the slouchy ones would be better?) or flats.

This is $68 from Urban Outfitters (still a little too pricey for my liking!).

This looks a little darker than I'd like it to be. However, if I was getting a tweed blazer, I'd want it to be charcoal grey. But I think I'm looking for a more casual/"regular" blazer that could go with jeans. I never owned a blazer til recently, but I like that it gives more structure and shape to an outfit. If I can find one with a cool lining...that'd be awesome!

This is a J.Crew suit blazer, so it might be a little more formal looking than what I'm going for, but I like the cut of it. This is $170...a liitle out of my price range!!

I don't own a winter coat, but I think it would be a good investment to get one, especially since I get cold easily. Over the summer, I was browsing around United Colors of Benetton, and they had this charcoal grey [there we go again with this color] coat; I really liked it, but it was too big, so I didn't get it. I should have though, because I have been looking to get a jacket for a long time. I think I have to settle on the fact that I'll need to tailor it, because it's very rare for me to find things that fit on the first try [such as jackets/coats/pants/shoes...tops are easier to find though].

I don't know if I like the belt on this jacket, but I guess it's good in that it gives the jacket more shape. This J.Crew coat costs around $200-300. It's actually black and not grey. If you go to the site, the photo of the "majestic purple" version of this jacket is very cute.

I've never owned a leather jacket, and I never really had a desire to, but I like the way this jacket looks [minus the $500 price tag!]. I like the color, but I think if it were a darker brown, it'd be more versatile/wearable.

This jacket is from UO.

I don't own any sweaters anymore, haha. I've gotten used to the warm weather I guess. Anywho, I like the details on this sweater, such as the deep scoop neck [nice for layering], 3/4 sleeves [so you don't have to push up/roll up the arms], and the contrasing neck/cuff/hem line [brings the sweater together].

This is also from UO, and is $88 [eeek!].


I normally don't choose light colored jeans, but one day when I was in UO [sorry, sorry], I saw a pair of silver [essentially light grey] cigarette jeans with contrast black stitching, and I was really drawn to them - I think because of the stitching. Alas they never had my size in stock [although one store I did find one size 25, but they looked weird, so maybe it was meant for me to not have them haha]. These are a different pair; they are $200 jeans from UO.

My sisters don't like 'skinny jeans' but I feel I don't look any better in other styles. I started wearing slimmer cut pants just right before you could find that style in all the stores. Maybe I do look silly, but at least I don't mind!


I'm looking for a thin knit [the scarf pictured here is silk-cashmere] that will keep my neck warm without itching it...I've had some chunkier knit scarves that I think were wool, and they would itch my neck like crazy! I can't tell if it is warm and soft, but I'm assuming so!

I like the idea of a light-colored scarf because it brightens up a dark outfit [since I don't own that many cream/white things]. This one is about $50 at J.Crew.

So as you can see, I really enjoy things from Urban Outfitters and J.Crew, and I tend to pick out things that are way too expensive. So I'll be on the lookout for less costly versions [or maybe wait til they're on sale? Haha].

Saturday, November 15, 2008

These Are a Few of My Favorite Things

I like making random lists, and inspired by Julie Andrew's Maria Von Trapp, I have decided to make a list of a few of my favorite things [excluding people], or at least things I like:

- the smell of rain (in the desert), movie theater popcorn, and cookies baking
- flowers, especially from a farmers' market
- good deals/finding something you've wanted on sale
- when you make it to the bus stop just in time so that you don't have to wait
- museums and libraries
- grilled food, and ice cream (preferably chocolate and mint)
- leisurely browsing through stores
- when you wake up really early and it's still cold outside, but then you hop into a nice, warm shower
- when it's winter time and going around to look at Christmas lights
- finding good bands that people haven't heard of yet
- random (and non-random!) acts of kindness
- laying down in an open space and watching the stars at night

Listen here to The Sound of Music's "A Few of My Favorite Things"

Thursday, October 30, 2008

The Little Things

Have you ever been so upset by something that it made you speechless, shake, or even cry? I am sure we all have, but that is NOT what today's post is about. No, my friends, I'm talking about the little grievances in life that annoy you; not the ones that make you cry, but the ones that miff you and make you frustrated enough to bother you.

So here are my "little things" of the day [mind you, these are just little things that made me go "arrrrgh"]:
- going to FedEx Office nd needing to scan 2 pages
At the desk it would cost $2 and at the self-serve computer it was $.30 per minute of computer use. Me thinking that it would be cheaper to use the computer, went to the computer. However, I used the wrong program, messed up on the scan, blah blah blah; the total cost me $2.70...and 9 minutes of my time. Not a big deal, but still a "arrrgh."

- Trader Joe's bananas
I went in to buy bananas, which were $.19 a piece; at the checkout, they rang up as $.29 a piece, and it was because I had grabbed the organic that was another $.50 wasted.

- my haircut
I don't know how I feel about it...I want to like it, because the hair stylist was so nice. But I feel the ends weren't cut looks kind of blunt and not blended in well. I couldn't tell in the mirror, and it wasn't til I go back and looked at it closer. It's not a bad haircut, just not an interesting one. And I feel like I look even younger than before.

Not a big deal. But still kind of a slight-slight downer. Oh well [with a shoulder shrug, of course].

** EDIT: another slight annoyance is that the formatting of the text box is not the same as the viewable blog setting...i.e. when I write out my blog post, I format it in the text box...but alas, it is not the same dimensions as the blog itself, and I don't know how to edit that.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Another Post on Prop 8

I have to shamefully admit that I usually don't get involved in politics, but now is a good time to be...

Proposition 8 really bothers me...the reasoning behind it....I don't get it. I honestly don't.

The reasons I've heard for supporters of the proposition seem illogical and unreasonable: "They're going to teach kids gay porn!" or "It undermines marriage!"

First off, I highly, HIGHLY doubt any gay porn will be taught...I don't know where that idea came from, but that is straight-up WACK. Pure lunacy! I think teachers will still be too busy trying to teach kids how to take standardized tests than trying to squeeze in a segment on gay pornography. As for undermining! How does sexual orientation undermine marriage, or family for that sake? As long as there are two loving parents, why does it matter if they are both men or both women? What about all the kids who were raised by single parents or divorced parents? They still seem ok to me. And what about the kids who are in an abusive, but heterosexual home?

People need to put aside their religious beliefs and look at what is fair. Marriages are NOT the same as civil unions. Why people are wailing about the religious definition of marriage? We need to focus on the legal aspect. Marriages come with a lot of legal rights that civil unions don't. While they may get state benefits, they don't get the same federal ones as the "1996 Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) excludes them [gays and lesbians] from many federal benefits." (, 2004). And in 1997, there were "1,049 laws where federal benefits, rights or privileges were contingent on marital status; [t]hey include tax breaks, pensions and Social Security benefits, inheritance rights and loans."(, 2004).

Didn't we learn anything from Brown v. Board of Education...separate is NOT equal. Until "civil unions" and marriages are given the same rights and privileges in every state, we cannot say they are fair and the same. When we start to marginalize a group and make it okay to segregate them from the "rest" of the population....that is NOT okay. I thought this country was founded on the idea that all men [and women] are created equal. Obviously that is not the case, as history has proven to us many times; but come on, we are in the 21st century!! Aren't we already supposed to know that we should learn from our mistakes?

People need to stop letting their personal fears decide how they will vote...they need to think about the general welfare of all people in a secular way.

** I apologize for any improper grammar and incorrect citations.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

[I Can] Go the Distance

I got my first legitimate job rejection. I mean, at least it was because the vacant job spot had already been filled and not because they didn't like me, but I was still bummed nonetheless. I'm trying my best to keep my chin up, but it's difficult to find appealing entry-level jobs. I know there are a lot of jobs out there, but I just don't want to settle, and I want to make sure that I am qualified.

I tried not to let it get me down, but as I was in the shower this morning, so many thoughts were running through my head: why-don't-i-have-a-job-already-am-i-a-failure-i-need-to-figure-out-how-to-support-

So as you can see, my thoughts run a 100 miles per minute. But as I was in the shower, I was reminded of the Hercules song, "Go the Distance." I guess I feel a little like Hercules; I don't know where I belong/what's best for me, but I so badly want to find that place/job/whatever it may be...and like he says, "I would go most anywhere, to find where I belong...."

So hopefully I find that place soon, amidst everyone else who is finding their place...

Go the Distance

I have often dreamed of a far off place

Where a great warm welcome will be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying this is where I'm meant to be

I will find my way, I can go the distance
I'll be there some day, if I can be strong
I know every mile will be worth my while
I would go most anywhere to feel like I belong

I am on my way, I can go the distance
I don't care how far, somehow I'll be strong
I know every mile will be worth my while
I would go most anywhere to find where I belong

Listen here

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

No on 8

This is taken from the California voter guide site:


  • Changes the California Constitution to eliminate the right of same-sex couples to marry in California.
  • Provides that only marriage between a man and a woman is valid or recognized in California.

Summary of Legislative Analyst’s Estimate of Net State and Local Government Fiscal Impact:

  • Over the next few years, potential revenue loss, mainly from sales taxes, totaling in the several tens of millions of dollars, to state and local governments.
  • In the long run, likely little fiscal impact on state and local governments.
What's the purpose of banning marital rights for the homosexual community? It's not fair and I don't see the point. For those who say that it's "protecting" marriage...I don't see why marriage needs to be protected in the first place when the divorce rate is at around 50% or so...if they want to "protect" marriage, maybe they should make divorce illegal! I admit there are some lines that need to be drawn when it comes to marriage [I am not an advocate for incestual relationships nor for non-adults], but not when it comes down to a person's sexual orientation. If [adult] people are in love and they want to marry, regardless of their sexual preference, why not?

Every person, no matter their race, gender or sexual orientation, should be given the same basic rights. Even if we may differ on the outside, we are all the same internally....we all need a heart to pump blood, we all need a brain to think and perform actions, and we all need to eat, breathe, and excrete to survive.

Maybe one day we can live in a world where we truly are more accepting of people. yes on Prop 2...let's give farm animals a decent living condition before they become our next meal [and I am serious when I say that].

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

And the Search Goes On; or Is This For Real?

So I'm finally [well, more like kind of] getting into the groove of job searching; I'm definitely getting a lot of support, which is really helpful. I think the hardest part is being able to put all that is great about you on one to two pieces of paper. That's what is hard about paper applications; I guess it is easier to "weed" out people, but sometimes you might miss some candidates that way...some people are great writers and not such great employees [if you get my drift!].

Anywho, I got word of a few job postings, and they seemed pretty interesting and right up my alley [entry-level, 0-2 years of work experience, marketing], til I realized they were commissioned-based jobs. Now that is not a bad thing, but I'd rather have a salary, so I know that I am getting a set pay and can budget around that.

With one of the postings, as I was reading through it, I stopped when I came to this section:

I don't know if you can read it, but they listed "numbchuck skills" as a highly desirable skill. I Google-searched it to make sure it wasn't corporate/business slang [heeyy, you never know!], and then it asked if I meant "nunchuck skills." Like the ninja weapon. So I had a good laugh about it.

A hearty chuckle, I would say.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Kids Will Be Kids...

So this evening, I turned on the television and watched Jon and Kate + Eight and 17 Kids and Counting on TLC.

I enjoy watching Jon and Kate, because I think the little kids are cute, and the way they shoot the show reminds me of my childhood home kids doing random, everyday activities that seem normal and insignificant at the time, but are nice reminders of the way things once were when we get too old and forget. They seem like a fairly normal family who happens to have a lot of young kids [however, they are from two sets of multiples].

The Duggar family, I find...interesting. Now it's really none of my business how many kids they have and how they raise them, but in my opinion, I could not intentionally have that many kids. I don't really agree with their family/religious values. I didn't grow up with religion or with a conservative family, but I think I grew up just fine. I watched rated-R movies as a kid and I ate a lot of ice cream and drank a lot of soda, but I never had the need to rebel, I did well in school, and any family squabbles I had were over petty subjects. I love my family and I think my parents did a great job of raising us, granted that my sisters and I were pretty good --of course not perfect -- kids, if I do say so myself.

Anywho, as I was watching these shows, I Google - searched both families, and a lot of links showed up, especially opinionated blogs. A lot of people made comments that made sense, but I found most were really harsh and biting, especially ones about Jon and Kate [referred to as "Kon" on many a forum/blog...which took me awhile to figure out, haha].

Of course everyone has opinions, especially about reality show contestants - - I know I've said my fair share of comments about those Sweet 16 kids and such, but I realize that we really don't know these people. We can get a good idea of who they are, but we don't interact with them on a day-to-day basis...those cameras aren't rolling 24/7/ least I don't think they are. And of course, the show is most likely going to show a [more] biased view of a person, especially one that is meant to stir up controversy, like Sweet 16, where the viewer "loves to hate" them.

I guess the point of my post was to say that it kind of irks me when people write really rudely, even though I am sure I have done it myself.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

If you want to destroy my sweater...

So this morning, I decided to finally hand wash my merino wool v-neck J. Crew sweater that I got in a nice mustard/saffron yellow color. I had placed it in a mesh bag for awhile, since I was going to take it to a dry cleaners....the tag had said DRY CLEAN ONLY, and it being a nice sweater, I did not want to destroy it. I had also needed to take it to a tailors, since after only wearing it once, a small thread near the shoulder had come loose.

Since I was going to LA this weekend, I thought I could drop it by my usual tailor in Westwood, but I didn't want to bring them a semi-dirty sweater, so that's why I had decided to go for it and [gently] hand wash it.

As I took my treasured knit out of the bag, I noticed a tiny little brown thing on the collar...I assumed it was a bug, so I took it to the bathroom where I used a piece of clean toilet paper to pick it off and throw it away.

As I unfolded my sweater and turned it inside out, I thought I felt something funny...something loose...a...HOLE!

In fact, there was not just ONE hole...but ELEVEN!

That little bug had eaten my sweater! My sweater that I had only worn once.

I was quite sad and disgusted at the same time. I still washed it, just in case there were bug larvae somewhere [crossing the fingers on that one].

So now I am left with a hole-y sweater...I checked the J. Crew site to see if the sweater was still available, but I didn't see it online...

This is back view of my sweater...the badly drawn red circles are some of the holes...

I guess I'll see if a tailor can still salvage it...but the cause may be hopeless.


Sunday, October 5, 2008

When I Grow Up...

What is the number one question that people are always asking me?

Survey what are you doing now that you're done with school?

Ok, so I am not sure if that IS the number one question, but it sure feels like it.

So what am I doing? Besides being a lazy bum and mooching off the hospitality of my sister and brother-in-law? I guess feeling scared and unsure and insecure...I liken it to those scenes in the movie where one person is being surrounded by a group of people that is slowly enclosing him/her til the mob overwhelms the person and they are no longer visible.

I am going on week 4 of no-jobness...I thought I was only on week 3...but alas time is quicker than I thought.

Please give me the strength and courage to believe in myself that I can do this and that I am a capable being with talents that can contribute positively to this world.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Yada Yada Yada

Doesn't it kind of suck, when you're feeling that 'ok, I'm not too shabby of a person,' and then you run into someone else who is wayyyyy better off than you, and then you think 'damnit'?

I know we shouldn't compare ourselves to other people, but...the other day I received an email from a fellow former Ad Teamer, who is this gorgeous graphic designer; she was sending us this email about how she participated in some graphic design contest, and that we could view the video on the internet. She also had a link to her online portfolio. I checked it out, and it was amazing. So not only is she beautiful, she's also talented and getting her ish together.

I started feeling a little bad about myself: no job, no real identifiable talent, and definitely not the model-type [but not that that should matter...].

So what's a girl, or for that matter a person, to do?

Delete the email.

[Haha, I didn't.] But really, I just gotta deal.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Failure By Design

I have been going through a rollercoaster of emotions this past summer...excitement, fear, regret, hope, sadness, joy, uncertainty... the list goes on and on.

I currently am unemployed, and I'm not sure what my next step in life will be. I know nothing is forever and we do have the ability to change, but it's a lot harder to do than say; I don't mean to say that we can't make changes, but if we go so far along with a decision or choice that turns out to not be the best, then you have "wasted" that time and those other missed opportunties. Sure, it may have been a learning experience, but when time and life is precious, those missed years mean a lot.

I am at a fork in the road, and I have to decide which path I'll take. I don't want to make the "wrong" choice, choose the wrong path...sometimes I wonder whether "things happen for a reason."

This post is very disjointed...more clarity and postings will come.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Keep On Movin'

This week has been a stressful week [but luckily things have calmed down]. I was busy working [45-ish hours] and trying to pack as well as figure out adult stuff [i.e. getting health insurance!]. It didn't help that I encountered ridiculously long bus rides and rude people along the way, but it's all good now.

So I've lent out my futon, tv, guitar, and mini-fridge. I thought about bringing my guitar, but there was no room...but maybe next time I'm down in LA...maybe I'll finally learn to play...although I probably should be focusing on finding a job first!

So yesterday I finally moved out of UCLA; four years of my life I had to pack up and schlepp out or throw away because I had no room/didn't need it. It was kind of bittersweet...I spent so long there and had gotten used to living there, so it was sad to see it go. But I know that fairly soon, I will be forgotten; I'll just be any other alumni that went there. The move was shorter than when I moved out of my old room, but I still had a lot of crap...I feel bad making my parents take it, since I won't be there to help unload, because...

I'm currently in Irvine, living with one of my sisters, who I owe majorly, by the way. I'm in her guest bedroom/ feels a little weird not living in a little room...but hopefully Irvine will treat me well.

That's it for now...but more updates in the future [?].

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

I coulda, woulda, shoulda...

So. There's a lot of things I should/could/would've done, that I didn't do this summer.

- getting in shape and exercising
- learning a language
- traveling
- finding a job


Wednesday, August 27, 2008

What's the story, morning glory??

It's been awhile since I've thing that I'm bad at is updating this. Because honestly, who reads this? No one! But I like writing, and I feel like writing out my thoughts is almost like narrating my life [a la Stranger than Fiction], which I kind of enjoy in an odd way....because it makes my life seem like a movie, haha.

**Updates coming later....

Monday, August 11, 2008

laundry list of randomness

Life is full of in my life right now. Where will I live? Where will I work? Who will be my friends? And so on, and so on.

My Ipod and dvd player both died [I think] this sources of entertainment are no longer available...what will I do???

Sunday, August 3, 2008

thoughts to ponder

why is life one embarrassing moment after another?

why are we plagued by and with insecurities?

do they stem subconsciously from the [supposed] behaviors and reactions of others?

i feel....

Monday, June 9, 2008

Make-up the Breakdown

* This is a play on Hot Hot Heat's album...

[I really should be writing my final project, but...]

I don't wear make-up. The last time I can recall fully wearing make-up was....senior prom??!!!! Maybe my sisters' weddings, but I doubt it. Why do I not wear make-up? There are a few reasons why...

-It's expensive. That's one [or ten] less things I need to spend money on.
-It's confusing. First of all, I have no idea what shade of brown I am....mocha? latte? beige? light beige? beige light? I remember buying make-up for a high school dance many moons ago, and staring at the wall of foundations [? i don't even know what the hell it was...concealer, maybe? I think foundation...] and thinking...'damn.' Secondly, I don't even know what type of products they have out there and whether I'd need them or not.
-I don't know how to wear make-up. Seriously. Give me a piece of make-up, and I'd probably not know how to use/apply it.
-I don't want people to get used to me wearing it and expecting me to look like that all the time.

Even though I'm holding out on wearing make-up, I feel like society is expecting me to. We associate make-up with looking older, which I definitely don't. I'm tired of feeling like people don't treat me as a respectable adult, because I am. I feel almost devalued as a person, because I'm not treated with the same courtesy as other adults [albeit I am only in my early twenties].

It's funny; people tell me that I should appreciate "looking so young," but it's hard when you're at this stage in your life, where you want to be respected and treated like a [soon-to-be] working woman.

Bottom line: I don't want to conform just yet [except maybe for graduation].

Tuesday, May 20, 2008


So on Thursday, I headed over to the Landmark Theatre on Broxton to watch Priceless, which is a delightful French comedy [yes, I used the word delightful].

There were only about 5 other people in the theatre, which is awesome [I like watching movies when it's not crowded]. I wasn't sure what to expect with the movie, but I really liked it. Audrey Tautou was beautiful in the film [she looked so different from her Amelie character], and even though her character was somewhat of a jerk, she pulled it off so well, that you couldn't help but like her in the end.

The premise of the movie is that Audrey's character, Irene, is a gold digger with very, very expensive tastes. Gad Elmaleh plays Jean, a hotel barman who falls for Irene. Irene initially mistakes him for a rich man, but when she finds out that he's not, French comedic hilarity ensues [kind of].

Throughout the movie, I couldn't help but relating it to my, I'm not a gold digger/planning on becoming one, but rather the whole idea of setting a good impression and the concept of owning "nice things." I feel that since I'll soon be entering the work force, I need to start looking like I belong there, which means I need to look more put-together....and that most likely means spending money. : /

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Happy Mother's Day!

This is my mom....[to somewhat protect her identity, I've "black-barred" her face so as to make it harder for you reader[s] to find out what she really looks like....], and she is amazing.

She gives so much, and doesn't ask for much in return. Her selflessness is incredible...I only hope that I can be a good daughter to her.

A few lines can't suffice to say what she means to me...but I love you, Mom.

* My apologies to those I alienate with this post...I mean to celebrate all the great women in my life who have shaped me into the person I am today...I am not necessarily targeting mothers only.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

You Can Do It If You Put Yo' Back Into It

So I've decided I want to get in shape, which is pretty miraculous since this is coming from a girl who does not work out...and has never really worked out. I've gone running [once or twice....which I actually enjoy], but I'm not one of those people who has to constantly go to the gym. In fact, I've never worked out at the school gym, which I know is a shame because I'm paying good money for a really nice fitness center. I guess I've always given the excuse of never having time, but I think I'd also feel slightly intimdiated by all those people that do constantly go to the gym. So why the sudden change? I've been meaning to for a really long time, so no time like the present right?

My goal is to get in shape and actually get my body actively moving on a continual basis...I want to feel better and sleep better and have more hopefully I'll stick with this attitude.

Friday, May 9, 2008


This is just the beginning.