Thursday, October 30, 2008

The Little Things

Have you ever been so upset by something that it made you speechless, shake, or even cry? I am sure we all have, but that is NOT what today's post is about. No, my friends, I'm talking about the little grievances in life that annoy you; not the ones that make you cry, but the ones that miff you and make you frustrated enough to bother you.


So here are my "little things" of the day [mind you, these are just little things that made me go "arrrrgh"]:
- going to FedEx Office nd needing to scan 2 pages
At the desk it would cost $2 and at the self-serve computer it was $.30 per minute of computer use. Me thinking that it would be cheaper to use the computer, went to the computer. However, I used the wrong program, messed up on the scan, blah blah blah; the total cost me $2.70...and 9 minutes of my time. Not a big deal, but still a "arrrgh."

- Trader Joe's bananas
I went in to buy bananas, which were $.19 a piece; at the checkout, they rang up as $.29 a piece, and it was because I had grabbed the organic ones...so that was another $.50 wasted.

- my haircut
I don't know how I feel about it...I want to like it, because the hair stylist was so nice. But I feel the ends weren't cut well...it looks kind of blunt and not blended in well. I couldn't tell in the mirror, and it wasn't til I go back and looked at it closer. It's not a bad haircut, just not an interesting one. And I feel like I look even younger than before.

Not a big deal. But still kind of a slight-slight downer. Oh well [with a shoulder shrug, of course].

** EDIT: another slight annoyance is that the formatting of the text box is not the same as the viewable blog setting...i.e. when I write out my blog post, I format it in the text box...but alas, it is not the same dimensions as the blog itself, and I don't know how to edit that.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Another Post on Prop 8

I have to shamefully admit that I usually don't get involved in politics, but now is a good time to be...

Proposition 8 really bothers me...the reasoning behind it....I don't get it. I honestly don't.

The reasons I've heard for supporters of the proposition seem illogical and unreasonable: "They're going to teach kids gay porn!" or "It undermines marriage!"

First off, I highly, HIGHLY doubt any gay porn will be taught...I don't know where that idea came from, but that is straight-up WACK. Pure lunacy! I think teachers will still be too busy trying to teach kids how to take standardized tests than trying to squeeze in a segment on gay pornography. As for undermining marriage...how?! How does sexual orientation undermine marriage, or family for that sake? As long as there are two loving parents, why does it matter if they are both men or both women? What about all the kids who were raised by single parents or divorced parents? They still seem ok to me. And what about the kids who are in an abusive, but heterosexual home?

People need to put aside their religious beliefs and look at what is fair. Marriages are NOT the same as civil unions. Why people are wailing about the religious definition of marriage? We need to focus on the legal aspect. Marriages come with a lot of legal rights that civil unions don't. While they may get state benefits, they don't get the same federal ones as the "1996 Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) excludes them [gays and lesbians] from many federal benefits." (CNN.com, 2004). And in 1997, there were "1,049 laws where federal benefits, rights or privileges were contingent on marital status; [t]hey include tax breaks, pensions and Social Security benefits, inheritance rights and loans."(CNN.com, 2004).

Didn't we learn anything from Brown v. Board of Education...separate is NOT equal. Until "civil unions" and marriages are given the same rights and privileges in every state, we cannot say they are fair and the same. When we start to marginalize a group and make it okay to segregate them from the "rest" of the population....that is NOT okay. I thought this country was founded on the idea that all men [and women] are created equal. Obviously that is not the case, as history has proven to us many times; but come on, we are in the 21st century!! Aren't we already supposed to know that we should learn from our mistakes?

People need to stop letting their personal fears decide how they will vote...they need to think about the general welfare of all people in a secular way.

** I apologize for any improper grammar and incorrect citations.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

[I Can] Go the Distance

I got my first legitimate job rejection. I mean, at least it was because the vacant job spot had already been filled and not because they didn't like me, but I was still bummed nonetheless. I'm trying my best to keep my chin up, but it's difficult to find appealing entry-level jobs. I know there are a lot of jobs out there, but I just don't want to settle, and I want to make sure that I am qualified.

I tried not to let it get me down, but as I was in the shower this morning, so many thoughts were running through my head: why-don't-i-have-a-job-already-am-i-a-failure-i-need-to-figure-out-how-to-support-
myself-why-are-plane-tickets-so-expensive-i-hate-overpaying-for-things-damnit-
why-
does-my-package-have-to-come-on-monday-when-i'm-already-gone-that's-
another-five-dollars-i-have-
to-waste-for-shipping-why-am-i-so-intimdated-by-driving-
why-do-i-feel-so-ugly-i-should-have-studied-
spanish-because-then-i'd-be-bilingual-
and-could-use-that-when-i-apply-i-hate-my-nose-my-cheeks-are-too-chubby-
does-c.-miss-me-a-lot-i-wish-i-knew-html-and-photoshop-and-other-
computer-related-programs-damnit-i-need-shaving-cream...

So as you can see, my thoughts run a 100 miles per minute. But as I was in the shower, I was reminded of the Hercules song, "Go the Distance." I guess I feel a little like Hercules; I don't know where I belong/what's best for me, but I so badly want to find that place/job/whatever it may be...and like he says, "I would go most anywhere, to find where I belong...."

So hopefully I find that place soon, amidst everyone else who is finding their place...

Go the Distance

I have often dreamed of a far off place

Where a great warm welcome will be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying this is where I'm meant to be

I will find my way, I can go the distance
I'll be there some day, if I can be strong
I know every mile will be worth my while
I would go most anywhere to feel like I belong

I am on my way, I can go the distance
I don't care how far, somehow I'll be strong
I know every mile will be worth my while
I would go most anywhere to find where I belong


Listen here

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

No on 8

This is taken from the California voter guide site:

ELIMINATES RIGHT OF SAME–SEX COUPLES TO MARRY. INITIATIVE CONSTITUTIONAL AMENDMENT.

  • Changes the California Constitution to eliminate the right of same-sex couples to marry in California.
  • Provides that only marriage between a man and a woman is valid or recognized in California.

Summary of Legislative Analyst’s Estimate of Net State and Local Government Fiscal Impact:

  • Over the next few years, potential revenue loss, mainly from sales taxes, totaling in the several tens of millions of dollars, to state and local governments.
  • In the long run, likely little fiscal impact on state and local governments.
What's the purpose of banning marital rights for the homosexual community? It's not fair and I don't see the point. For those who say that it's "protecting" marriage...I don't see why marriage needs to be protected in the first place when the divorce rate is at around 50% or so...if they want to "protect" marriage, maybe they should make divorce illegal! I admit there are some lines that need to be drawn when it comes to marriage [I am not an advocate for incestual relationships nor for non-adults], but not when it comes down to a person's sexual orientation. If [adult] people are in love and they want to marry, regardless of their sexual preference, why not?

Every person, no matter their race, gender or sexual orientation, should be given the same basic rights. Even if we may differ on the outside, we are all the same internally....we all need a heart to pump blood, we all need a brain to think and perform actions, and we all need to eat, breathe, and excrete to survive.

Maybe one day we can live in a world where we truly are more accepting of people.


And...vote yes on Prop 2...let's give farm animals a decent living condition before they become our next meal [and I am serious when I say that].

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

And the Search Goes On; or Is This For Real?

So I'm finally [well, more like kind of] getting into the groove of job searching; I'm definitely getting a lot of support, which is really helpful. I think the hardest part is being able to put all that is great about you on one to two pieces of paper. That's what is hard about paper applications; I guess it is easier to "weed" out people, but sometimes you might miss some candidates that way...some people are great writers and not such great employees [if you get my drift!].

Anywho, I got word of a few job postings, and they seemed pretty interesting and right up my alley [entry-level, 0-2 years of work experience, marketing], til I realized they were commissioned-based jobs. Now that is not a bad thing, but I'd rather have a salary, so I know that I am getting a set pay and can budget around that.

With one of the postings, as I was reading through it, I stopped when I came to this section:

I don't know if you can read it, but they listed "numbchuck skills" as a highly desirable skill. I Google-searched it to make sure it wasn't corporate/business slang [heeyy, you never know!], and then it asked if I meant "nunchuck skills." Like the ninja weapon. So I had a good laugh about it.

A hearty chuckle, I would say.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Kids Will Be Kids...

So this evening, I turned on the television and watched Jon and Kate + Eight and 17 Kids and Counting on TLC.

I enjoy watching Jon and Kate, because I think the little kids are cute, and the way they shoot the show reminds me of my childhood home videos...us kids doing random, everyday activities that seem normal and insignificant at the time, but are nice reminders of the way things once were when we get too old and forget. They seem like a fairly normal family who happens to have a lot of young kids [however, they are from two sets of multiples].

The Duggar family, I find...interesting. Now it's really none of my business how many kids they have and how they raise them, but in my opinion, I could not intentionally have that many kids. I don't really agree with their family/religious values. I didn't grow up with religion or with a conservative family, but I think I grew up just fine. I watched rated-R movies as a kid and I ate a lot of ice cream and drank a lot of soda, but I never had the need to rebel, I did well in school, and any family squabbles I had were over petty subjects. I love my family and I think my parents did a great job of raising us, granted that my sisters and I were pretty good --of course not perfect -- kids, if I do say so myself.

Anywho, as I was watching these shows, I Google - searched both families, and a lot of links showed up, especially opinionated blogs. A lot of people made comments that made sense, but I found most were really harsh and biting, especially ones about Jon and Kate [referred to as "Kon" on many a forum/blog...which took me awhile to figure out, haha].

Of course everyone has opinions, especially about reality show contestants - - I know I've said my fair share of comments about those Sweet 16 kids and such, but I realize that we really don't know these people. We can get a good idea of who they are, but we don't interact with them on a day-to-day basis...those cameras aren't rolling 24/7/365...at least I don't think they are. And of course, the show is most likely going to show a [more] biased view of a person, especially one that is meant to stir up controversy, like Sweet 16, where the viewer "loves to hate" them.

I guess the point of my post was to say that it kind of irks me when people write really rudely, even though I am sure I have done it myself.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

If you want to destroy my sweater...

So this morning, I decided to finally hand wash my merino wool v-neck J. Crew sweater that I got in a nice mustard/saffron yellow color. I had placed it in a mesh bag for awhile, since I was going to take it to a dry cleaners....the tag had said DRY CLEAN ONLY, and it being a nice sweater, I did not want to destroy it. I had also needed to take it to a tailors, since after only wearing it once, a small thread near the shoulder had come loose.

Since I was going to LA this weekend, I thought I could drop it by my usual tailor in Westwood, but I didn't want to bring them a semi-dirty sweater, so that's why I had decided to go for it and [gently] hand wash it.

As I took my treasured knit out of the bag, I noticed a tiny little brown thing on the collar...I assumed it was a bug, so I took it to the bathroom where I used a piece of clean toilet paper to pick it off and throw it away.

As I unfolded my sweater and turned it inside out, I thought I felt something funny...something loose...a...HOLE!

In fact, there was not just ONE hole...but ELEVEN!

That little bug had eaten my sweater! My sweater that I had only worn once.

I was quite sad and disgusted at the same time. I still washed it, just in case there were bug larvae somewhere [crossing the fingers on that one].

So now I am left with a hole-y sweater...I checked the J. Crew site to see if the sweater was still available, but I didn't see it online...

This is back view of my sweater...the badly drawn red circles are some of the holes...


I guess I'll see if a tailor can still salvage it...but the cause may be hopeless.


GRRRRRRRR.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

When I Grow Up...

What is the number one question that people are always asking me?

Survey says.....so what are you doing now that you're done with school?

Ok, so I am not sure if that IS the number one question, but it sure feels like it.

So what am I doing? Besides being a lazy bum and mooching off the hospitality of my sister and brother-in-law? I guess feeling scared and unsure and insecure...I liken it to those scenes in the movie where one person is being surrounded by a group of people that is slowly enclosing him/her til the mob overwhelms the person and they are no longer visible.

I am going on week 4 of no-jobness...I thought I was only on week 3...but alas time is quicker than I thought.



Please give me the strength and courage to believe in myself that I can do this and that I am a capable being with talents that can contribute positively to this world.