[That was a Phantom Planet song by the way.]
Anyways, you may be wondering 'what is up with the title, Betty?' Well, lately I've been feeling lonely. Actually I've been feeling that a lot, pretty much since graduation. But to be honest, I've always felt that way, even when I was surrounded by people.
Why do I feel this way? Mainly because I rarely see people or talk to people. I come home after work, and I don't do anything. On the weekends, I will occasionally do something during the day, but at night, I am once again in my apartment. I don't even have television to keep me company.
I am not blaming anyone in particular. This feeling comes from a few different factors, namely that I don't know who my friends are anymore. A lot of people who I would consider friends, are gone/moved away. The friends still in the area, we either drifted apart, or are not close enough to hang out.
I never had a close group of friends growing up; my friendships were usually on a one-to-one basis, and I seem[ed] to have a horrible tendency to lose touch with people. In high school and college, I was always 'too busy' with scholastic and extracurricular activities to hang out, and I wasn't interested in drinking/clubbing [which seemed to be a big contributor to social engagements].
So now that I have the time to hang out, I don't have a lot of people to hang out with. I could try to meet new people, but I don't know where one does that.
I just saw "I Love You, Man" a mere 2 hours ago, and I could totally relate to the film. Not that I am an engaged man looking for a best man, but rather a person trying to find real friends in the adult world...